It was very nice to be home again after being away for such a long time. The first thing I did was sleeping, lots and lots of sleeping and after a few days I started to clean the house, also to keep me busy and to clear my head.
A lot had happened the past couple of months and I’m not quite sure if I handled it all that well. I checked my phone and email about 5 times a day to see if there was a message of Joe, well there wasn’t. Of course I could call him myself or send him a text/email, but somehow I didn’t. I know I probably hurt his feelings by dating Jona (and Marty and…) So cleaning my home and my head was the best way to keep me busy.
I squeaked when the doorbell rang and the was a delivery boy with a huge bouquet of red roses. Ow my…I sat down on the floor and checked if there was a card…
After some more days of fun with Jona I had to leave for home. It has been a while since I was there, too busy with work and men ;-) But no I simply had to go, so I said goodbye to Jona and called Marty to tell him I was leaving. I haven’t heard from Joe, but I know he is busy and somehow he must have seen pics of me and Jona in the paper or on the internet. I’m longing to go home and sort things out and to spent some time on my own and away from those attractive men.
Jona and I had a great time, after the festival we did spent some more days together. He took me horseback riding and we went for a picnic. We also talked a lot. He told me he wasn’t ready for a relationship and I told him I wasn’t sure I was ready myself.
As much as I like Joe, I didn’t think about him that much, so that must be a sign. I need to sort things out first before I settle down and as much as I do want a family of my own I’m not sure this is the right time. Somehow neither of the men I had been with lately gave me the feeling of being ‘the one and only’. Jona told me he liked to settle down too, but he was afraid to fall in love again, he was afraid to get hurt. He looked at me and I saw his pain, his ex girlfriend really did hurt him deeply. ‘Will you join me for a fancy dinner?’ he asked changing the subject. ‘Of course, I love to silly’ I replied. ‘So put on that lovely purple dress I bought for you and lets go’ he said and gave me a soft and sweet kiss.